Decision.....!!!!!!

"Steve Jobs is dead", someone said when we were in a training...!!!

A little google on the guy revealed many things about his life and decisions he had made....

Reluctantly....it also forced me to do some thinking.......especially on the years spent so far in my life...doing one thing or the other, irrespective of whether I liked it or not or whether I wished for it at the first place or not.....many incidents happened with sweet and bitter memories but I could not single out one where I had been the decision maker.......All my decisions had been taken by someone else with me being a mere approver........

I went to school which my parents selected for me.....took courses which were suitable to get high scores and then to ensure a suitable admission in an engineering college.....college and course were again of course approved by parents...Had an arranged marriage....

Well, my intent is not to downplay the roles of my parents whom I love dearly and respect their decisions and wisdom...and also all their decisions have been good for me......but sometimes when life asks me a simple question........"whats the single decision you have taken and have stood by it against all the odds" I simply never had an answer......sometimes during the journey on the path of life....you would like to just sit and ask this question to yourself and ponder...........

All decisions, definitely would have not gone well, if I would have had not approved them....so some way or the other they have been approved by me..though they were not mine....so frankly speaking...there is no one to blame............all decisions were indirectly mine.....

I guess, its easy to talk about walking on a tight rope but most of us miss the opportunity to take a stand and select the path which we believe in....may be we lack direction or we are bad at sensing opportunity...since, if universe is a friendly place, it must have given us many opportunities.....do we lack wisdom or do we think so much that fear gets a chance to grow exponentially ? or we are too happy with the way things are and never actually want things to change ?

I am doing the soul searching....what about you ?

After 5 years.....!

It's just so happened that I went to Los Angeles with my wife to visit universal studios and disneyland and got a lucky chance to meet two of my college friends.

If universal and disneyland were planned, getting an email from my friend and getting a chance to see them was a surprised happiness.

We got together and literally picked the thread of conversation with topics which were left in college and thereby immeterialising the long 5 years gap between us. I always have bowed to the greatness of time but this time I hope, we dodged time..! It feels really so nice to talk to old friends and especially in the same way, brushing aside any professionalism of which we already are part of.

It also reminds me of one of the quotes from the novel 'The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Shalinger'.

"Dont even tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody." how true :)

Literally when you start talking about old days, most of the times you would remember only the good things and they come one by one.....almost a vicious circle of events....leading to one another.....never ending, ever charming...happily ever after types.......!

All in all, it was a nice trip and above all a nice small get together of old friends :)

Photos...!!!!!

I have been working on this topic for almost 1.5 years ....well, dont be surprised...I was not thinking about the content for so long...........it just happened that I left blogging for some time....it happens...I guess with all bloggers :).

However, sometimes when I think about photos, I am kind of mesmerised by them and thank so many number of times to the person who has invented camera or still photography.....just think for a moment, so many activities we covered in photos....I must say...we live many lives in photos... Photos have the capability to capture all the emotions in single shot....kodak shot.....Sorrow/joy, festivities,friends,folly....it can capture anything and everything...

Time as per its nature just flows and leave its footmarks and we all can just look behind for some pictures which just stand still and take us back to our olden days........whenever you see them...you actually live in them and laugh or become sad.

Well, they can make or break new/old relationships and are massiah for lovers or whom else they will believe to share their love/emotions. This blog is not yet perfect but imperfections are here to stay :)

Prem ki Naiyaa hai Ram ke bharoshe...!!!!!!

"Prem ki naiyaa hai Ram ke bharoshe"....to start with I liked this song from 'Ajab Prem ki gajab kahani'...and some of the times I wonder... with only limited number of alphabets...how poets/writers have played around for so long and have come up with so many masterpieces...!!!!!!!

Going to literal meaning of the line...does finally love happens 'Ram ke bharoshe'......? the more I think...the more of my heart and brain says 'yes'.....I guess most of the things in life happen which does not make much sense in present...but as time passes....they unveil their intention...and then we realize....everything goes as per 'Ram ke bharoshe'......

Well.....Lets leave the Naiyaa then... raise the hands and.....sing the song "Prem ki naiyaa hai Ram ke bharoshe....apni bhi naiyaa ko paar tu lagai de"...!!!!!!

Changing Times...!!!!!

Year 1994 - 'Hum Aapke hain Kaun'
Watching 'Hum aapke hain kaun' during one weekend , I remembered,this is the movie which my parents have seen before taking us to theatre, way back in 1994, when it has been released. They wanted to ensure that we watch a safe movie, without any fights, vulgar scenes etc. After watching it and satisfied with its content they have allowed us to watch the movie the next day. Being in the middle class family and too small I have failed to understand it.
Year 2007 - 'Guru'
My parents have decided to visit Bangalore and alongwith other things, I wanted to show them a movie in PVR theatre, yes guys PVR is still not there in Udaipur. But the difficult task was to choose a movie which can be seen with parents. I chose 'Guru' as I have seen it before and my mind has declared it safe for my parents.Whenever I think about this paradigm shift, I have to admit, time indeed has changed. .
Frankly speaking its difficult...err.....sorry, its impossible ...to watch even a so called family serial with parents, you never know what will happen next, a couple can come lip-locking out of nowhere,forget about fight scenes, there are so many scenes where you have to ask for an excuse to leave, or you will not be able to look into the eyes of your parents afterwards.
Looking at two sides of the coin I have realized that time has changed indeed and it has changed considerably.
Now you can only imagine about the old world where Parents used to decide the limits for their children, welcome to the new happening/vibrant/Yo world where the limits for the parents are decided by their children.

Silicon City Vs. Silicon Valley....!!!!!

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I - The Ultimate Reality...!!!!!!

The clock had struck 2:15 in the morning when i woke up suddenly. The thought of my reality which has been haunting me for more than 5-6 years has striked again suddenly and i thought about it for 15 mins then slept again.
This is about the reality which is unknown to the world and which cannot be told and its better if it remained untold. Some inner feelings, some real dark part of your life which if revaled will destroy the belief of others on you. The realiy which will destroy you to such an extent that you will never see your face in the mirror. Apart from the dark patches there would be so many unfulfilled desires ,dreams about which nobody has any single ounce of idea.
Sometimes i think when someone dies, dies with him one unknown world , a world where nobody can enter, a bastion where nobody is allowed, the place where the shadow of the self-being too have to take a permission to enter. What happens to the reality of self-being then, I think, it dies too an immature death since it cannot be shared. The question arises : Is the reality of self- being a burden for the individual ?, I think yes, and this is the burden the weight of which cannot be shared with others.