My Experiment with Happiness !

Hi...
believe it or not the smile on the face of a small kid had forced me to write this blog.!
outside our flat live 2 small kids and their favourite time pass is to lock our door from outside....! so,yesterday when we were leaving for some work they were trying to lock the door and we saw them and tried to frighten them...they run away and again came near to us, started laughing without any reason-its like they have got some treasure or something- u shd see the milky whiteness in thr eyes...their fearless gestures.....!!!!
Thinking about the same I felt pity on me- who thinks twice before laughing- since i m a memebr of a grown up society....! I rem. on of my frds saying.."wts the point in growing up when u cant be childish at times" correct rt...! then my thoughts wandered off to other deeper issues like wt i ve lost as i ve grown up...!
thr r so many other heart touching moments which i have preserved.....one such moment is related to One Diwali Night.....though i m sure my words wont be able to express my genuine feelings --they wont suffice for this expression- but i wil give my try to capture those memories...
So it began when i went to one nearby shop to purchase something...and at the very same moment one person ( a labourer ) with his child came to the shop......for quite some time they were watching the crackers as they were looking at "Kohinoor Diamond" .....finally the father succumbed to his child's pressure/desire and bought one cracker ( ya one cracker only "Shulti bomb" i think, sorry, i dont think, i m sure he had only tht much money)....
and within a second he lighted it in shop's premises..bang explode...and wt it this both child and his father were mad with joy....laughing / jumping, a feeling of ecstacy gripped them and i was left wondering...at first i cant even imagine wt is happening and they were still laughing........!!!!!!never in my life i had heard/seen/listen such a
heartful laugh without fear...without any biasing without looking around...they r happy in thr own world though they ve so many miseries they were njoing the moment ....is this is not wt mattered most in our lives ..! the happiness which is pious, pure , pristine.........and thr i was left shattered Weeping ......why and why and why i have not purchased another cracker costing a mere 2 or 3 rs. ...
ya i behave like a stupid so many times and i justify myself by one or other manipulations/reasons but till date i dont have any explaination for tht very moment......!in other words i cant excuse myself......!
Happiness for which we all are striving / craving must be reflected from our heart....! isnt it..???
yesterday only i got a glimpse of tht laughter in the eyes of the kids..and
i landed here...!