Good Bye .....!!!!!

Dont ever go on the literal meaning of these two words, its misleading. These two words in reality open a world which spearates you from your dear ones for hours, days, months or even years or sometimes for the lifetime.
Either my emotions deceive me or I deceive them when I have to say these words.
I realized the difficulty to utter these two words is directly proportional to the closeness you enjoy with the person. My Eyes betray me first then my words. I try to catch the moment, I try to freeze them, I try my best only to get defeated and then i try again to get defeated again, to reconfirm that change is the only thing which is having ultimate authority over anything and everything. Good Bye $Mishra, as I dont want to write more about this as more I will write more I will get hurt.

She...!!!!!

For me she is the ever changing frame. Intrusion of so many girls have forced me to redesign the frame so many times. I keep the frame close to my heart and when I think I have finalised the frame, destiny sends me far off from she. This frame does not change in a day, its like a process which can be aptly described as continuum which changes a little each time but after some time the entire frame changes to such an extent that I simply wonder. She is the living frame which is so pure that I fear to see her twice, she is the best God has ever created.
She is the dream which I want to live, she is my larger than life ambition which I adore, she is the life and hopefully she will be THE END.

Salaaaam.....Americaaa.....!

Accept my salaam, beautiful America....!
The first thing which i noticed about you from the Aeroplane was the SFO's highly lauded red-coloured bridge. Amidst the clouds it was looking awesome.
Some of the funny incidents which I have noticed so far :
1.. The first thing with which I compared you with My great India is the colour of the flyover. Same colour.
2. "Jump in it Kid" one security person told me when one cab came near to me. The manner in which he said was quite good.
3. A couple of my indian friends alongwith me were waiting for the signal to become green but amazingly a citizen of yours broke the rule and went to other side.Funnier is the part that we still waited for the signal to become green...!
4. While taking picture of some apartment one local guy asked me naughtily whether i am taking the picture of the Apartment or the girls passing by. ( he was correct ...... and you too got it right...)
5. Guess....one localite asked me some local address. I was literally amused.....!
6. I found Delhi Metro better than light rail of yours dear.
7. Whatever I may say, but, while putting my foot on your soil I felt like I am putting my foot on Moon's Surface.....!
8. To say a big "Hi" with a broad smile on your face to every passer by.
9. I love you but everything looks foreign to me here even trees , roads, rails etc.

Beautiful is the peaceful and law-abiding culture of yours.
Expect more inputs soon as you have revealed very little to me and I have too gathered very less.

Dreams Unlimited.......!

I dream to touch the sky, to fly with the birds, to build a house on clouds for me and my family, to flow like sea-water, to grow like grass, to rotate like earth, to be with all my friends all the time,to behave like an innocent kid, to be protected by everybody, to be carefree but in all my senses,to glow like sun, to shine like the first droplet on a leaf, to twinkle like a star at dawn time, to grab the entire universe in my fist, to move the earth like a football, to go with wind covering every corner of the world, to visit all the places in the world,to say "I love you" to a girl.
I want to laugh madly, full-heartedly, foolishly like a child.
So many dreams and everyday,every moment I am trying to get a bit of one or the other here and there. May be after collecting the pieces and making a collage I may not cover the entire list but then the new item could be my most coveted/craved thing ;)

Quotes from the Novels I have read.....

The Catcher in the Rye : J.D. Shalinger
1. The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one.
2. Dont even tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.

Midnight's Children : Salman Rushdi
1. Anything you want to be, you can be : you can be just what all you want.
2. Nobody can face the world with his eyes open all the time.
3. To understand just one life, you have to swallow the world.
4. What cant be cured must be endured.
5. Most of what matters in our lives takes place in our absence.

The Moor's last sigh : Salman Rushdi
1. I must live until I die.
2. You must not cry like a woman for a thing which you could not defend like a man.
3. Wise man's brain does not come automatic with wise man's name.
4. We look up and we hope the stars look down. We pray that there may be stars for us to follow, stars moving across the heavens and leading us to our destiny, but its only our vanity.We look at the galaxy and fall in love, but the universe cares less about us than we do about it and the stars stay in their courses however much we may wish upon them to do otherwise.Its true that if you watch the sky- wheel may turn for a while you will see a metero fall, flame and die. Thats not a star worth following, its just an unlucky rock. Our fates are here on earth. Ther are no guiding stars.
5. I stopped being afraid becuase if my time on earth is limited, I dont have seconds to spare for funk.

Angels and Demons : Dan Brown
Science tells me God must exist. My mind tells me i will never understand God. My heart tells me i am not meant to.

The Da Vinci Code : Dan Brown
History is always written by the winners when two cultures clash, the loser is obliterated and the winner writes the history books - books which glorify their own cause and disparaged the conquered. As Napolean once said : "What is history, but a fable agreed upon". By its very nature history is always a one sided account.

To kill a mocking Bird : Harper Lee
1. One must lie under certain circumstances and at all times when one cant do anything about them.
2. The one thing that doesnt abide by majority rule is person's conscience.
3. You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view,until you climb into his skin and walk.
4. People in their right minds never take pride in their talents.

Kite Runner : Khaled Hosseini
There is only one sin, only one and that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft. When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth.When you cheat you steal the right to fairness.

A thousand Splendid Suns : Khaled Hosseini
One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs, or the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls. - about Afghanistan

Memoirs of a Geisha : Arthur Golden
1. Nothing is bleaker than the furture, except perhaps the past.
2. "I never seek to defeat the man I am fighting". I seek to defeat his confidence. A man troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.
3. Grief is the most peculiar thing; we are so helpless in the face of it. Its like a window that will simply open of its own accord. The room grows cold and we can do nothing but shiver. But it opens a little less each time and a little less; and one day we wonder what has become of it.
4. A man who has won a prize coveted by his friend faces a difficult choice: he must hide his prize away where the friend will never see it if he can or suffer damage to the friendship.

The Monk who sold his Ferrari : Robin Sharma
1. Life always dont give what you ask for, but it always gives you what you need.
2. We are all here for some special reason. Stop being a prisoner of your past. Become the architect of your future.

Jo Jeeta wahi sikander :-

Anomalies in the behavior of so many characters around me during their traversal of path for success, their arguments, justification for their failures has given me enough grounds to dwell into this topic.
I am not going to buy this argument of yours my friend that... I might have done this, I was not in mood , this is not my cup of tea....blah...blah........pls cut this crap and let me say only one thing boss..... "Jo jeeta wahi Sikander". I agree to the fact that the way you have achieved the goal is more important than the winning itself but at the same time you can't refute the ultimate reality that after following the right ways too you could have achieved the same goal and the final barometer universally accepted is nothing but the result.
Sometimes I think the goal is more important than the ways to achieve it.
Fascination towards the right ways must be abandoned the instance they start hampering the very idea of your goal and the right ways themselves becoming your enemies.
You all must have whistled at, praised the role of the angry young Amitabh in "Zanzeer" who broke the law to get his goals which he was unable to achieve as a Police Inspector. I just don’t want to be a hypocrite and would say Winning is the most important thing. Infact, winning is almost everything sometimes and you have to forget everything else to hit the bull's eyes. Consider the movie "Jo Jeeta wahi Sikander" where it was almost do or die situation for Aamir khan to win the match for his brother, his father who says "Jo Jeeta wahi Sikander".
Consider again the case of devastated Kabir Khan of "Chak de India", the guy struggling for his name and fame and above all on the mission to prove his credibility to this hypocrite society. For him winning was everything.
I know for this I am going to receive a lot of flak but then a small deviation from the correct path, if in totality, leads to the final deliverance of the well-intended goal then it is justifiable. where you put the bar for this deviation may be different. Always following the right path and leading nowhere is unacceptable to me.
Let me site some examples from history in my favor. As per my understanding history is not only meant for reading; its to enlighten us, to make us learn from the mistakes of others and to inculcate some of the features of the great personalities which are highly eulogized.
For instance take Sri Krishna:- he has always attracted me in ways more than one, according to me he was the one person who has defeated the entire Koravas with his wit only...some of the ways for e.g. the trick to Kill Drona the way to kill Bheesm etc.....are examples where you have to use the fraudulent means to achieve the target since the same is in favor of entire humanity......don’t take me wrong I am not talking here about humanity....I only viewed the same in the paradigm of achieving one's objective.... OR
Consider Rama's case, he has given patronage to Vibhishan and Goswami Tulsidas has eulogized him as the savior this being the one part...I guess Rama was one of the best politician and diplomat, he knew in advance that this guy was his key to his win against mighty Ravana and hence involved him in his campaign... OR
take the case of Chanakya whose only target was to bring every region of this India under one roof under one umbrella. Under one king and to overthrow Nanda Samarajya.....and he has achieved it by his tricks and his will power, his diplomacy..... OR
consider the modern day example of movie "Guru" where the guy follows some fraudulent tricks to move forward carrying along the general public.
Sometimes it’s the necessity of the hour to leave behind the correct path and achieve the goal. Sportsman spirit says: It’s not important to win the game but is your participation. I agree to it but my emphasis is to participate and win, since I am not participating to give the crown to others.
We (including me) must have an urge and desire to break the cobwebs surrounding us and ultimate, indomitable perseverance to achieve the goal. I don’t know While reading "Mein Kemf" (“My Struggle”) by "Adolf Hitler" I have seen this urge in this guy to re-unite great Germany. Though his ways were extreme but his intention was right as far as re-unification of Germany was concerned.
On failures we tend to justify our ego, I think with an impulse we are bound to justify ourselves, and we don’t juxtapose the failure reasons and remedies and just try to overlook the obvious thing. I know you might have tried your best to overcome some of the difficulties, you will say this was wrong ...that was wrong and I have done everything that was in my hands I will say only one thing sir..."Jo jeeta wahi Sikander".
Rules of the game can’t be different for different persons, so, if ever I say I was not in mood so didn’t do it..... You just say one sentence "Jo jeeta wahi..." and I will be back on track.....!

No...!!!

No i wont do it...! i wont come..I cant ....I am busy.....No please..!!!!
How many times it has happened that you have found it difficult to say "NO" even though its
the essence of time and you dont have any other option. It happened so many times with me and still I find it extremely difficult to say "No" to my friends in most of the circumstances even if it is genuinely required and it leads me into a quandary state.
I dont know why after saying "No" to somebody I feel guilty and seek for ways to please the guy/gal with any other favour i can do simply to nullify my previous denial. They say I am not mature, I cannot agree more, but I cant help it out.
Probably i think too much about others' feelings and keep their desires above mine but i am no one to judge. I feel really bad if somebody says "No" to me and then i will just try to console myself which is always palliative in nature and thats why when somebody asks me even for a small favour, i am done, i try to put myself in his/her shoes and just consider the disappointment which that person will go through and am forced to say "yes" voluntarily or involuntarily.
I cannot see hopes shattering into pieces only because of my denial since its the hope you cannot give back, the incipient happiness you cannot give back.
They say everything is relative, i agree, and in this theory of relativity I am actually weak at.
They say they remember only good things about frds i say i remember everything though not intentionally.
Everything or anything done to me by anybody has an impact in my life, so good or bad somehow I have to be accountable for it and so I must not look for a scapegoat for the same.
So many times it happens people take ride on you because of this gratuitous attitude of yours but then on the back they say the guy is not pragmatic.
Let them be pragmatic and let me be a fool for them as i care less.
My past six years nomadic life has taught me this lesson : Say "no" upfront rather than keeping it in abeyance. The same may sound rude to the person asking for your presence/help but will surely not play with his/her feelings. Dont allow it to linger for no further reason.
Life goes like this and everytime you cant argue as arguments lead to nothing save harsh feelings.
My true friends can understand my situation whenever I say "No" to them as they understand me better than myself and about the rest do I really care......... ???????

On a Humorous Tone !

Plagiarism charge if you want to slap against me for this article then pls go ahead for the simple reason that I have bought this idea when i was reading an article by a renowned person where he says "ppl take their lives so seriously even if its not so".
Just reading my blogs i realised even i have done the same thing. some of my frds have pointed out this and then i realized being serious is pretty easy the real task is to become jovial in your day to day life. Ok then let me try to go into this territory.......!!!!!!!
Have I forgotten how to laugh..? I dont think so....as I generally behave like a Kid in most of the situations esp in front of my dear ones....my sobriquet being "Chatter Box"...I want to be spoiled by my frds and have succeeded on so many occasions...thanks to my big time supporters,frds for bearing me :)
Humour by itself gives you a smile ( small or big depends on how much you are able to open your mouth ).Sometimes due to work pressure or some menial tasks we feel low and even forget to give a simple smile to our near and dear ones which really costs nothing. I think most of us spent most of your time in really pettifogging matters which generally doesnt matter significantly to us and in the process we forget the simple beauty of the moment which,however, hard you may try, will never come back.A humour harbours itself in a free mind and so the trivial things should be abdicated to garner the habit of pursuing happiness in small incidents. You always have a choice and choice you make determines the path of your beahvaiour.
Reach out for the sky but please never forget to give your Salaams to the beautiful Clouds which too deserve your recognition, your small but charming Smile.

Impressions,Expectations and Reality....!

Hi,
You have to prove yourself everyday not to anybody else but to yourself as the impressions created yesterday though carry forward do not suffice for the mighty expectations of your own for the present day.
Everybody lives in the paradigm of their own imaginations expecting something out of everything they do everyday in their lives.Its the gap between the expectation and reality which really complicates the things. The reality I always believed is goverend by your perfromance at the moment. Your goals set at the beginning should not have a mask of fake belief but it should be weighed properly against your personal strengths to lower the risks of failures.
As a human behaviour we expect the best from us but fail to pool the efforts required to finish the task.While Expecting we dont leave any stones unturned but while traversing the path we somehow forget the best effort is required to achieve the best.
So expect 100% put 200% of your best effort and then check the reality, as you cannot see the reality materializing from the spectales of impressions created yesterday and expectations residing in future.

Love Love Love !!!!!!!

Hi ,

Love is in the air..isnt it ??? the biggest buzzword of all the times....!!!!! still confusing, enigmatic...atleast that holds true for me.....! I dont know why i am writing about this topic may be i just wanted to write or may be i have reasons which i just dont want to reveal here ( may be ) OR may be thr is no limit to Love as thr is no limit to stupidity...!

Looking at love smitten couples and their love and having experience of seeing so many love birds in college I always wondered is it really possible for somebody to really crave for somebody so intently, so eagerly ,so childishly........I didnt get the answer then, but now.......! Love just happens and most of the times you wont even realize and sometimes you dont even know whether its love or not...!
Love is contagious i guess, it makes you so happy about yourself as welll as about the person you are in love with...
Dont know the point when it strikes but its strike is colossal and it lasts for long buddies..

You can write a book on it and then you might realize that you have written nothing.......

Not a firm believer in love at first sight i think one generally gets attracted towards somebody slowly and the love is like a Slow sweet poison which intoxicates you slowly and you finally succumb to it.....to go to the state of oblivion...

Salute to this feeling which is pristine, charismatic , persitent and everlasting.....

Individual and Individualism....

I am an individual and i love and respect the individuality.
While reading "Atlas Shrugged" and "Fountainhead" , both of which propounds, Ayn Rand's thought provoking radical theory of "Objectivism" which is in direct contrast to Spiritual theory of Hindu Mythology, I was bound to think about the matter in hand quite profoundly.
I dont know sometimes, somehow i think we all pretend at one point or the other that we are happy, we are our usual self only for the sake of others. This may be becuase of our sub-conscious mind's conscious effort. We seek the moments of happiness with whom we are not even comfortable with. Consider a scenario where all your so called frds are suppose to meet for something and you have not reached on time then what matters to you, does it matter that you got call from each one or the only thing which matters is to get a call from, to whom you consider your frd. To me only thing which matters is whether i got a call from my frd or not. It doesnt matter to me whether anybody else has called or not.
After leaving college I have learnt a good lesson to not to expect anything from anybody except yourself. Less Expectations less heart burns.
To a certain extent the theories of Ayn Rand hold true till the focus point remains on self- development, to achieve the things you desire in life. When she delves in the territory of war between weaker and stronger section i think she looses the focus.
Though the idea which i have bought from the book is you should strive for the dreams and should work diligently for the same and you will enocunter the unreasonable persons and their highly irrational behaviour paving your path. Their intentoin to take a ride on your achievements,their predilection is not to understand the matter and complicate it unncessarily for you to get success.
The point which striked me the most "Nobody can live here by faking the reality" and its like hammering on the very idea of faith and spiritualism.
As confused i am already, though i am not an evangelist of individualism, I would say everybody has all the rights to think about him/her the first.

Realm of uncertainty.....

Hi,
Just wandering in the thick forest of IT, I realised I am walking on a path which leads to nowhere. Far from home,alone in crowd, seeking for frds , abusing & cursing managers, working for unknown clients and all the surrounding circumstances forced me to believe that i am living in realm of uncertainty.
Trying to add some value to my work and to correlate the same with my studies so far seems to me a far gone conclusion. sometimes i think why have i studied so hard to get this job, only because i need of money.. yes right absolutley.....and i am continuing in this job for only that thing though i may give you innumerable other reasons.Yes I am ready to do buttering to any senior to outsmart others for I also need onsite, for i also have to sustain in the market, for i am also just one of them who fights but then surrender to the situations.
Yes, you can laugh and make fun of me, you can denounce me for my deeds but sorry I will do it not for my pleasure but since everybody else is doing it, this is "in " boss if you dont do it, you are out , if you do it your soul is out. So , Who cares about the soul....you and i dont think about it for we have right too , but we have forbidden that path my frd or will forbid it very soon.
Sometimes i wonder if I would have been rich enough I must have left this place a long ago to chase my dreams but that silly excuse cannot be an safe argument to hide.
The only thing which i have learnt required to chase your dreams is nothing but courage. so
I dont have courage rightly so....though we always appreciate the persons who reach the peak but dont try to achieve the same since the Top is bright but somehow we are reluctant to face the difficulties and to abandon our comfort zone.
May be things are the way they have to be and I might have governed them the way i think but what if I dont want to think becuase if I think I will be unacomfortable because this is not the place where I would have thought myself to be before 5 years but dear sir if things start happening your way you will become perfect but you have taken an oath to imperfection. You are wonderful in disguising the facts and to live in an ilusioned world where you feel safe and you dont want any intervention or truth to be heard from any corners.
You are safe as long as you dont want to hear your soul for this is the voice of the soul you cant hide or neglect.
Sell your brain without any cause since you are getting the money as everyone else. Dont write all these blah-blah when you are going to do nothing about it for "saying and doing nothing" is quite in vogue these days for this has to be your attitude to get a chunk of share in the market for you are not separate from others, for you have to follow the same path as you dont want to travel the separate path for you are weak, for whom the same laws apply.
What will happen to me after 5 years everybody think but very few acts for it. Do you want to become one of the few or want to sail with majority you dont know right..well done keep it up for you this will be your path until you decide your destiny.
all these thought provoking books seem to be motivating but the real motivation you dont want to exhibit because this is what you have made of yourself..congratulations for the situaitons finally prevailed and you got defeated......happy.....
No No No.... I wont lay my arms for i am the man, I am the power and I am the universe for i have to choose my own way to decide my fate on whatever cost...for i have never learnt to surrender. I will rise, I will come back but what i want is some time, i dont have much time to spare as I have little in my stock.Every day is a new day and that is day of MY Life. Wait I will show you my strength for I will not take much time to rise, you have to salute me for the deeds which I will do, for my courage strength and bravery. Dont laugh since my era is going to begin I am coming and will break down the shackles of this uncertaintly and will destroy this realm as i have to decide my destiny for I am a MAN, a MAN of Substance.